At some point in the last few months, I went from being a little girl who knew “nothing” to an “adult” who was supposed to survive in the “real” world. But I see it differently now.
Now I know for a fact that compared to the rest of the world, I am more little than I ever thought I was, but that doesn’t mean my influence has to be. When I look at the world now, all I see is brokenness. I see the demand for the love of Christ to be spread and everything else just falls somewhere in between. I also discovered that when you have a heavenly perspective, there is no such thing as the “real” world. Actually, this place we currently reside in should be called anything butreal.
We spend way too much time working toward things that don’t matter. Which means that we are living in the skewed reality that all of the time we spend on meaningless objects, people, and spiritually draining situations, will amount to something. But I’m here to tell you, if you don’t already know, that if Jesus isn’t on the other side of your equation, you will never get the answer to life. Emptiness will surround you and you’ll find yourself in a constant state of searching for more, when you really don’t even know what “more” looks like.
I know these things, because I’ve experienced it.
Walking through those crucial learning experiences changed everything. However, the coolest part is that I didn’t experience them and then things suddenly became easy and perfect. I am still learning, failing, contemplating, growing, and then restarting the process. That process is hard and discouraging, but I’m learning that with Jesus it is more enjoyable and possible to endure. Notice how I didn’t say easier? I think so many times we like to think and say that having Jesus to rely on makes things easier. When in reality, it doesn’t. I’m learning that not only should I rejoice in the gift of salvation, but the gift of suffering with Him, as well. Both are to be seen as a gift and it’s so easy to only proclaim our faith in Him when times are “easy” and when He is doing good things in our lives. But I want to be known as someone who rejoices all the more when things are hard and suffering is all I can see. To suffer with Jesus by my side is just as great as to have the gift of salvation through Him.
Isn’t it funny how growth with Jesus doesn’t necessarily have to mean moving in an upward direction? I’m learning that growth can look like a million different things and move in a million different directions. Growing in my walk with the Lord looks super weird to me right now because for the longest time, my walk with Jesus only looked like an upward climb. But as the seasons of my life are transitioning and things and people are being added and subtracted from it, I’m learning that my growth with Jesus looks a lot like closing my eyes and falling into my only hope. There is safety in the falling when you know without a doubt that your dependency’s name is Jesus. We all need Him, in His entirety and in His fullness. I need Him, every second, every minute, every hour. Life is insanely hectic, disappointing, and unpredictable, but there IS hope. He is our portion, He is ENOUGH. He is everything I am not.
Thankfully, the one common thread between all of the craziness life throws our way is Jesus. It always has been and it always will be. He’s good, so good, even when I am undeniably not. If that’s not something to be incredibly thankful for, then I don’t know what is.
Cling to Jesus, my brothers and sisters in Christ. Let’s just go ahead and be who we were made to be. Find joy in proclaiming the righteousness and love of a God that wants to walk with you through every stage of life. Not just the good ones.